Ok everyone, I know I have missed a couple of posts. To put it shortly, the theme of my last couple of weeks is exhaustion. I have never felt before like I do now and I cannot think of anything comparable to it. All I can say is that when I get back home, I might just sleep for a whole week. On, that note, I plan to keep this short and direct. So here is post 20, week 25 (ish... I am not really sure anymore).
Financial: So I currently own two stocks and both are doing well. The one is sitting at about 10% gain and is climbing slightly. The other, is near, if not over, 25% gained. The latter actually climbed even higher than that recently and then fell slighting, but is climbing back up. I am interested to see how high it is going to go. And don't intend to sell right away.
Mental: So, not really much progress on my lean six sigma project, but I have been helping someone else out with theirs. I am not really sure how I got dragged onto their team, but they got a short suspense and needed the help. As difficult as it has been, I am glad to help out a friend and I know it helped relieve some of their burden, so I don't mind so much. Though there have been moments when I wanted to gouge my eyes out after staring at powerpoint slide for days on end, I'd like to think I did some good. And unfortunately, it isn't done yet. But it is close. But for now, I am slowly starting to shift back to my own project. I am hoping to knock out my measure and analyze phases in the next couple of days and our final exam is coming up in about a week. It will be good when I can focus on my project and not have to worry about class anymore.
Emotional: It has been crazy busy over here and I feel like I have been running 100 mph. I am completely exhausted and feeling quite spent. To put it lightly, I am feeling burnt out. I have been traveling and working non-stop for probably close to two weeks on a mammoth project that was briefed to a two star general on Saturday. Unfortunately, it isn't done yet either and so there is still more to do. But with the brief, the work and the traveling, I just feel completely out of energy. And when that gets tied in with the crazy drama my unit is currently experiencing (but that I cannot go into), it just leaves me feeling like I have been hit by a freight train. I don't think I have ever been so tired before. And the thing that helps me get through that is the people in my unit. My friends and coworkers here have been such a relief to me. Being able to sit and chat and joke and laugh in the midst of sheer exhaustion as been very comforting. I cannot say that it makes the work load feel worth it, but it is definitely what gets me through.
Physical: This has fallen to the wayside during my traveling and working the last couple of weeks. I am hoping to return to a more normal schedule now that I am back in Bagram, but we shall see. I need to find a more consistent schedule and get my butt outside and run more. On the up side, the weather is calming down and it is more pleasant to run. On the down side, I am tired and don't feel like going. I still am hoping to do the Army ten miler in October, but I need the pace in my life to slow down a bit first.
Spiritual: While I have maintained the ability to read my bible twice a day, this past couple of weeks has been destructive to my quiet times. The long hours just nugging away in front of a computer took their toll and I am hoping that now that I am back in Bagram, I might be able to get some solid sleep and reset myself. Unfortunately, I am feeling spiritually very weak, just like I do in every other area of my life right now. I feel like I lack the emotional capacity to handle my exhaustion and that it is seeping into every area of my life. I pray daily for strength and drive but I can hardly find it. The worst part of my day is waking up and dragging myself out of bed. I'd love to end this with something witty or inspiring, but I have got nothing. I am still here and feel like a balloon with a slow leak that is just about out. We are going home in two months but I cannot give thought to anything past today without feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. Hopefully, the next couple of weeks will slow down and I will find my strength renewed. I have heard that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but I am now contemplating if it is possible to walk away without being hardened and changed.
Financial: So I currently own two stocks and both are doing well. The one is sitting at about 10% gain and is climbing slightly. The other, is near, if not over, 25% gained. The latter actually climbed even higher than that recently and then fell slighting, but is climbing back up. I am interested to see how high it is going to go. And don't intend to sell right away.
Mental: So, not really much progress on my lean six sigma project, but I have been helping someone else out with theirs. I am not really sure how I got dragged onto their team, but they got a short suspense and needed the help. As difficult as it has been, I am glad to help out a friend and I know it helped relieve some of their burden, so I don't mind so much. Though there have been moments when I wanted to gouge my eyes out after staring at powerpoint slide for days on end, I'd like to think I did some good. And unfortunately, it isn't done yet. But it is close. But for now, I am slowly starting to shift back to my own project. I am hoping to knock out my measure and analyze phases in the next couple of days and our final exam is coming up in about a week. It will be good when I can focus on my project and not have to worry about class anymore.
Emotional: It has been crazy busy over here and I feel like I have been running 100 mph. I am completely exhausted and feeling quite spent. To put it lightly, I am feeling burnt out. I have been traveling and working non-stop for probably close to two weeks on a mammoth project that was briefed to a two star general on Saturday. Unfortunately, it isn't done yet either and so there is still more to do. But with the brief, the work and the traveling, I just feel completely out of energy. And when that gets tied in with the crazy drama my unit is currently experiencing (but that I cannot go into), it just leaves me feeling like I have been hit by a freight train. I don't think I have ever been so tired before. And the thing that helps me get through that is the people in my unit. My friends and coworkers here have been such a relief to me. Being able to sit and chat and joke and laugh in the midst of sheer exhaustion as been very comforting. I cannot say that it makes the work load feel worth it, but it is definitely what gets me through.
Physical: This has fallen to the wayside during my traveling and working the last couple of weeks. I am hoping to return to a more normal schedule now that I am back in Bagram, but we shall see. I need to find a more consistent schedule and get my butt outside and run more. On the up side, the weather is calming down and it is more pleasant to run. On the down side, I am tired and don't feel like going. I still am hoping to do the Army ten miler in October, but I need the pace in my life to slow down a bit first.
Spiritual: While I have maintained the ability to read my bible twice a day, this past couple of weeks has been destructive to my quiet times. The long hours just nugging away in front of a computer took their toll and I am hoping that now that I am back in Bagram, I might be able to get some solid sleep and reset myself. Unfortunately, I am feeling spiritually very weak, just like I do in every other area of my life right now. I feel like I lack the emotional capacity to handle my exhaustion and that it is seeping into every area of my life. I pray daily for strength and drive but I can hardly find it. The worst part of my day is waking up and dragging myself out of bed. I'd love to end this with something witty or inspiring, but I have got nothing. I am still here and feel like a balloon with a slow leak that is just about out. We are going home in two months but I cannot give thought to anything past today without feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. Hopefully, the next couple of weeks will slow down and I will find my strength renewed. I have heard that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but I am now contemplating if it is possible to walk away without being hardened and changed.
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